I have lived in Indiana for three months now, but I still feel very, very new. My home does not yet feel quite 'like home', although I love it. I've made a few friends, but they do not yet have the richness that comes with time. I'm not even close to having mastered my job yet, although I really like it too. I look back over 2017, without a doubt the most difficult year of my life, and am so grateful to be able to trace God's hand through it. Who would have ever thought that two mini strokes could lead to the loss of so many friends who were unable to grasp the truth of I John 4:18: "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear ....." Someday it will be clear; perhaps not until I pass to the next life, but I do proclaim His faithfulness. I have fought for my very life and would not be here if I wasn't anchored deep into His sovereignty. I still wake up every single morning to a jolt of reality .... this really did happen; this is my new life. It got too big. It's surreal. Sometimes I still wonder if I'm going to survive. If only I could have been given a chance. Just one chance. I never got it.
I recently came across a quote that has become very meaningful to me; especially this Christmas season. Just last week I was invited back to MN for an annual holiday brunch, only to be officially uninvited by the hostess, who had professed to being my friend. As I sat, once again, on an interstate overpass, listening to the rhythm of the traffic flowing beneath me, I was reminded of this beautiful piece by John Ruskin, shared in one of my favorite devotionals Streams in the Desert.
One thing I do love about Indiana is being so much closer to my brother. Tim came here for Christmas, and we had a wonderful day in Chicago last Saturday, eating at the Walnut Room at Macy's, going to Millenium Park and walking the magnificent mile along Michigan Ave up to Water Tower Place. So much fun to be in Chicago at Christmastime! The rest of the weekend we relaxed at home, with a picturesque scene of falling snow outside my back door. Quite beautiful!
Now a new year is upon us, and I'm not quite sure what this girl was up to last night but she appears to have a New Year's Eve hangover. She's usually the first one up in the morning but has been lazily lounging in bed all day today! She's cracking me up. Happy New Year to all my friends and family and best wishes for a prosperous 2018!
|The Magnificent Mile - Michigan Ave|
|Water Tower (one of the few structures |
spared in the Great Chicago Fire)
|The Walnut Room at Macys|
|Water Tower Building|
|The Bean at Millenium Park|